Friday, December 6, 2013
get this: i'm 30 weeks pregnant, the only photo i have of us was taken almost two months ago, and i'm just now getting around to writing my first letter to you. things sure are different the second pregnancy around. i promise this isn't an indication of what's to come, though; you'll still get a baby book and sticker calendar to mark all of your firsts, just like your sister did. you'll get over-the-top birthday parties, too. and you'll be loved just as much as evie is.
last night, a friend asked me if i was looking forward to giving birth again. i replied enthusiastically, "yes! i can't wait." and it's true. i can't wait to pack your little bag with tiny tees and pants and a hat for you to wear on the way home from the hospital. i can't wait for the labor and pain, for the mountain i'll have to climb before getting to meet you, for the indescribable feeling of accomplishment after bringing a precious life into the world. i can't wait to look into your blue eyes for the first time, the two of us exhausted and curious. will both of your eyes open all the way? will you have red hair like your sister, or light brown like i imagine? after the excitement of labor is over and we're left alone in that hospital room, i can't wait to get to know you.
when your sister was born, i had no clue what to expect. i didn't know the love i had for my baby could grow so big or so fast, or for so long. i love evie more every day. now, it doesn't feel like my heart has any room to grow, but i know it will double in size. i know i'll love you more and more with every passing day.